How Did I Get Here?

How does one end up becoming a 'Hitler YouTuber'

Thumbnail from ‘Zoomer Historian: Dresden, Denialism & Laziness’

In early 2023 I decided that I needed to contribute something. I did not come to politics early. Growing up on Guernsey like I did guaranteed that you lived an extremely apolitical existence. There were no local political parties to speak of, only individuals, not that anyone particularly voted anyway. A joke candidate, in fact, managed to get in year after year. No one cared, and indeed, why would they? The island, besides being increasingly expensive, had no real modern problems to speak of. Up until very recently the demographics were almost completely pure Anglo-Norman and there was and still is no crime.

St Peter Port harbour

You would, of course, always hear stories about everyone’s trips to the ‘mainland’ as we call Britain. ‘‘Bloody hell mate, landing at Gatwick was like touching down in Pakistan’’ or ‘‘God, Birmingham is such a shithole, it’s like being in Africa, I barely saw a single bloody White face!’’ were the typical type of comments you’d expect to hear after picking up a friend or family member from the airport. These comments would become more frequent and harsher as the years went by. Demographic concern for Britain was always just a passing comment though, it felt so far away and surely it could never reach Guernsey, after all, what could we do about it?

It was only shortly after Trump came to power the first time around that politics began to seep into my life, and even then, it was a gradual process. I can vaguely remember replaying Assassins Creed: Brotherhood, one of my favourite video games from my teenage years, whilst I was on discord with a few mates. One of those mates, Nick, a Canadian, told me about this fellow named Ben Shapiro and how he would debate college students and completely rip them to pieces.

Soon enough, I, too, was watching Ben Shapiro and my political journey had begun. I suppose I have Ben Shapiro to thank then for getting me to where I am now. At the time of course I was going into this whole political thing completely blind but Ben made a lot of sense to me in general. There was very overt little political indoctrination for me growing up and so I suppose I was vaguely right wing without even thinking about it since that is man’s natural state. Homophobia and racism, as long as it wasn’t excessive, was completely normal in the late 90s-2010s Guernsey and due to a lack of homosexuals and non-Whites, this was never really something that we had to be indoctrinated against.

Regardless, I was one-shotted by Ben Shapiro and Prager-U slop for a while. I can again vaguely picture this classic PragerU video which tries to paint the Israeli Defence Forces as God’s gift to earth or whatever and thinking it made perfect sense at the time.

I watched all of the usual stuff that was shoved in your face in that 2016 era. Dave Rubin, Candace Owens, Matt Walsh and more, but most of the names escape me. Why it was mostly American politics I was consuming at the time was probably just down to it being the most entertaining. After consuming this sort of drivel for a while I had become political for the first time in my life, even if it was just centre-right capitalist civic nationalist nonsense.

The exact process completely escapes me, there surely must have been some kind of deeper transition and personalities I watched in the following years but to me now it’s like an almost complete blank in my memory, mostly because I was essentially consuming for mindless entertainment at that point. Either way, by 2019 I had somehow found Nick Fuentes and was avidly watching pretty much every episode of America First. I imagine it must have been the Groyper War in which Nick’s fans were asking Charlie Kirk tough questions during his talks that led me to Fuentes as that took place at the exact same time.

That is of course quite the leap from Mr Shapiro just a few years beforehand and if I force myself to think about it there was only really Gavin McInnes, Sargon of Akkad and barely far-right figures like that which I had stumbled upon in the meantime.

It was 2020 when politics all became very real to me and I suppose this is probably an extremely typical story for those around the same age as me (I’m 27 at the time of writing). There was firstly the COVID-19 pandemic of course and right from the beginning (thankfully) I was far enough along in my political journey to see through that one right away and I never had any of the vaccines or boosters. More importantly though there was George Floyd and the Black Lives Matter riots.

As mentioned, racism to a ‘tasteful’ degree was normal growing up but it was never really something one had to think about. This, though, was where I became explicitly racial. Watching so many people in my life mindlessly changing their avatars to black squares and getting behind this ‘martyred’ criminal George Floyd was bewildering to me. Racial politics had seemingly finally reached my little homogenous island home, and not in a good way!

I can remember messaging a few friends and making comments on how bizarre it all was, in response in every case but one I was essentially told to stop being a weird contrarian, it truly felt like everyone else was under some kind of mind control. It certainly wasn’t me, I was sure of that much. Watching the nonsense unfold before me at home was one thing, but seeing my people all across the world being stepped all over and made to grovel for their past, and worse, their present, absolutely propelled me to the right like nothing else before.

My shift to the right continued and in 2021 I found myself, for reasons I cannot even begin to understand sitting down and watching Adolf Hitler: The Greatest Story Never Told. I had never had any particular sympathy for Hitler and I’d always seen the Second World War in the traditional manner. Back home Churchill is viewed as a hero as he is anywhere else. We were even mentioned in his famous speech announcing Germany’s surrender:

‘‘Hostilities will end officially at one minute after midnight to-night (Tuesday, May 8), but in the interests of saving lives the “Cease fire” began yesterday to be sounded all along the front, and our dear Channel Islands are also to be freed to-day.’’

Hearing this as a kid along with a steady diet of Saving Private Ryan, Inglorious Basterds and such was enough to bring a tear to my eye. Churchill was our saviour!

The moment in the war when the Germans requested that the women, children and non-fighting age men on occupied Guernsey be sent to England was not mentioned in our history classes. (Churchill replied to the report on this matter with “Let’em starve. No fighting. Let them rot at their leisure.”)

The Controversial note - September 1944

Anyway, the point is, I hadn’t been gobbling down World War 2 redpills yet and I have no idea why I decided to watch that 6 hour 30 minute documentary all the way through suddenly one day. My life has never quite been the same since.

I was aware that I was watching what amounted to ‘opposite propaganda’, that being essentially stating the opposite of whatever the mainstream narrative is which results in monstrosities like ‘anti-racist Hitler’. Regardless, the nonsense and exaggerations aside, watching that documentary took an absolute sledgehammer to my view of history and I actually had to go and sit outside by a lake and think about what I’d just seen.

It was as if my entire world had just been turned upside down. Obviously the ins and outs of what exactly I had been lied to about were not clear to me yet but ultimately what mattered is that the entire foundation of our modern world, that being fighting World War 2, was a lie, or, rather, the version fed to us had been a lie. I certainly had a lot of thinking to do.

This rabbit hole very quickly led me to David Irving and over the next year I absorbed and re-absorbed just about every single talk he gave, hours upon hours were spent on Bitchute listening to those grainy and in some cases almost inaudible talks. It was listening to David that finally made everything coherent for me. He was and is a man who tells things as they are, regardless if people get upset. He spoke plainly without an agenda and was easy to understand. I felt I could trust him, and, indeed, it’s been an absolute pleasure to have worked with him and his family since starting my channel. It felt like I had come full circle.

David Irving - One of my heroes.

Something about this topic especially became an obsession for me. I was frankly furious that I had been lied to my entire childhood and my mind was utterly blown. I could never get enough. I absorbed whatever I could find on the topic and as a result I am now typing this in a small corner of a room, the rest of the room is filled by piles and piles of books. I had always loved history and from here it all really came together for me.

It was also during this time that I began using X (then Twitter), at least politically speaking. I was a lurker but I followed people like YouKipper and that sort of British crowd. I wasn’t completely engrossed in American politics but there wasn’t really any ‘content’ I was watching in British politics at that moment, and so X was where I kept up to date and got involved.

In early 2023 I felt that I personally had to do something and get involved. It was eating away at me that I was just sat on the sidelines and felt like I had to actually provide something. My people were being led astray by a lie and had been for an awfully long time. The clock was and is ticking and the thought of not participating with what I felt I could offer made my stomach churn. If people woke up to their own history, I thought, then a lot of the rest would come quite naturally, as indeed it has to many who watched my videos and told me about their journey which began with me. The way ahead very quickly became clear to me and it lined up with my personal circumstances.

As mentioned, it was the history aspect of our modern predicament which became my obsession and I felt like there was a serious gap in the market for someone to sensibly cover that topic on YouTube. Most importantly I felt like censorship had subsided enough to allow for it to be possible. At that time, I felt, the only real content around which addressed the Second World War to a large audience was Europa: The Last Battle, The Greatest Story Never Told and content of that type. Very explicit, often full of lies, and extremely dramatic and over the top. This type of thing had worked for a lot of people but a different approach was needed I felt. After all, what’s the point of selling lies anyway when the truth is sufficient? There was space to just say history as it was, and, naturally, YouTube felt like the right place for it. Those familiar with my lore will know that I had done YouTube previously years beforehand and so this was hardly unfamiliar territory for me. If anyone was going to do this it had better be me.

Europa: The Last Battle (2017) - I’m not the biggest fan.

I was certain from day one that the content would go far and get an audience, although I did not quite expect to blow up quite as much as I did as fast as I did. My previous job had recently exploded in my face and I was getting into dangerous territory financially, I had also just had my first child. Usually this would sound like the worst possible time to take a gamble on something like YouTube, but as I say, I was absolutely 100% convinced that this type of content would quickly garner an audience and so I began thinking up ideas. The fake history pushed upon us is of course not only the Second World War, but I figured that that would be the most prudent place to start as it’s the biggest lie, the lie people are the most interested in and therefore the lie which would most likely bring in an initial audience. Once I’d acquired that then I could introduce people to other topics, like I had been doing this year with Rhodesia and earlier with the Spanish Civil War and Franco’s Spain in general.

The actual name Zoomer Historian came to me and the Mrs whilst we were walking the dogs. I believe I originally thought of the name, dismissed it because I felt it was maybe just over the ‘cringe line’ but then she suggested the exact same name and won me around it on and I’m glad she did, the other names I came up with were so horrific that I’ve now thankfully forgotten them. I only remember how terrible they were.

I was then essentially all set up and ready to go. I had a name, I had the will to do it and the confidence to do it, all that remained was to get started and so I did. There would be a lot of trial and error in terms of production but I knew that improvements would come with time.

My first video (complete with horrific self-made thumbnail)

The actual story of doing YouTube for two and a half years is a story all in itself, especially the first year, which ended up taking me to a job in a freezer and then to another freezer, that being Eastern Europe in the Winter before the channel eventually worked out and I was able to return from my chilly exile. That, though, is a story for my next Substack.

Initially this was meant to be a semi-short piece on what I’m planning to do next, but instead it’s become a trilogy, the last piece being the one I initially set out to do.

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